Bisexual ~~~ and SOG

Bisexual.......
what is bisexual?????
go find the meaning of the words by urself.....

Many ppl dont agree on lesbian or gay....how about bisexual????
dO you agree of it????

Someone ask me.....
Hey...you really a bisexual????
I say yes....Then they juz...ooo...really????
haha....

Am i a bisexual for you????
I wont tell u the truth....let u discover it....
trust or not is depends on you....

Recently quite stress on everything....especially....my results of my study at the campus and my private class.....

Everyone seem that...my face alw having the smilling face....actually....who knows i'm just pretending or what.....is it a real me or not????Let you to discover it too....
Someone everytime find me to tell their problem...i dont mind...but if is same problem about a guy for a whole week....omg...seriously...i ....need some space la...girl.....
Actually i started quite angry about ur attitude....
Dude....i'm not ur slave....i'm not your driver....i'm not ur banker.....
FUCK OFF....DIAO...KNS...JB...LJ.....DING.....MOTHERFUCKER SHIT...BASTARD.....
I try to make u to a good path...u reject my helping hand...
and u treat me like UR FUCKING BULLSHIT......
I treat u as a friend u treat me AS A FUCKING SLAVE....
I treat u as a friend to help u treat me AS A DRIVER....
I treat u as a friend to change ur attitude u treat me AS A BANKER.....

GIVE ME BACK MY RM200 ....
JB.....OWE PPL $$$$ EVERYWHERE....U KNS...LANJIAO LA LU....TIAO NI LAO MU.....TMD
U ARE DAMN FUCKING MOTHER BULLSHIT......BASTARD.....
Dont alw told me u took lrt back till the station no ppl fetch.....need to walk so pity....
JB....Dont want walk den learn driving la....dont wan learn driving...den PAID ME LA...LANJIAO....
I dont need much just need at least RM 50 ABOVE DEN MA GAO TIM LO....

U THIS 'SOG' REALLY ....
SO KNS
SO LJ
SO JB
SO A MOTHER FUCKING BULLSHIT
SO TMD
SO TNB
SO KNLM
SO .....A JERK
IDIOT
BASTRD
PERVERT.....
DAMN USELESS
BRAINLESS
LAZINESS
STUPID!!!!!!!
JUST FUCK OFF THIS WORLD GO BACK TO UR PLANET LA....JB!!!!!!!!!



muahahhaaha....

不可思议的力量~~~

昨天与一般朋友谈到不可思议的力量时。。。我对他们说出了我的‘ 第6感 ’ 。。。
对你来说很荒谬吧。。。但对我来说很痛苦。。。。

我可以知道5 分钟后会发生什么事。。。大家会说只是巧合。。。但对我来说不是。。。

1st case....
我回外婆家。。。与表妹骑motor。。。突然我的脑海闪过一个画面。。。
当时。。。的画面就是我们发生意外。。。我和她都受伤。。。
结果，就在我要避免的时候。。。发生了和画面一样的意外。。。
第一次的巧合。。。

2nd case....
小学的我。。。有个大哥接在我放学。。。每天都一样。。。没事发生。。。。
直到有一天。。。下雨。。。往常的雨天。。。我都没有这么样的画面。。。
那天。。。。很突然的。。。我看到脑海的画面。。。哥哥撞车。。。
在我想对哥哥说小心时。。。我听到了刹车声。。。
结果一模一样。。。我当时很害怕。。。很害怕。。。就将酱这事情收在心里十多年了。。。
第二次的巧合。。。

3rd case。。。
中学大考。。。朋友已有执照。。。考完试后决定在学校附近吃板面。。。
我在考场很努力的作答时，突然有个画面是我朋友发生意外。。。
结果我考完试后。。。接到了电话。。。。
结果。。。是真的。。。幸好人没事。。。
第三次的巧合。。。

4th case...
中学巴士车。。。
有一天，我的脑海又出现了画面了。。。
我觉得是我多想了。。。。但结果显然不是。。。。
最后。。。的确发生了一模一样的意外。。。
是我多想还是真的可以看到呢？？？？
我的第四吃的巧合。。。

5th case...
最近。。。我发生了一场意外。。。
waja hit my frenz car...myvi....
其实在红绿灯等待的时候。。。我有过有车向我冲撞的画面。。。
由于已经隔了许久没有过将的画面。。。所以我将它忘了。。。不理会。。。
最后。。。结果就是。。。waja...hit myvi。。。
我的第五次巧合。。。

6th case.....
Before 5TH case....happen....this case which mean 6th case ...is the only one...
在我不清醒的状况下。。发生的画面。。。
由于当时我是睡觉发的梦。。。所以我没在意把它。。。视为。。。一场巧合的梦。。。
那场梦是我的好朋友。。。。sasa。。。。会和他分手。。。。
结果。。。我醒来后。。。不久。。。我接到了一样的消息。，，==。。。
对不起><........

这是巧合吗？？？还是。。。什么呢？？？？我以前不晓得。。。只知道。。。还蛮痛苦的。。。应为。。。都不是美丽的结局。。。都是恶梦。。。。><........

远离~~~

谢谢。。。你在我决定要远离你的时候。。。留下了深刻的回忆给我。。。
我很想去珍惜。。。但今天我发觉。。。有心无力。。。
既然你决定不想约束我。。。不想伤害我。。。
那为什么。。。还要对我那么好。。。让我不舍呢？？？
你到底想怎样。。。我有累的感觉了。。。
我不想再去猜测你的想法。。。
我要怎样远离你？？？要怎样避开你？？？
为什么。。。永远。。。都是。。。。never have a dream come true~~~

讨厌。。。啊。。。。

你真的很讨厌。。。真的。。。真的。。。很讨厌。。。
你狠狠的插了我几刀。。。却很温柔的替我包扎伤口。。。
让我不知该恨你还是爱你。。。
有时还在伤口上撒盐。。。让我伤上加伤。。。当我决意要恨你时。。。
你又很温柔很细心的为我包扎伤口。。。让我恨爱难分。。。
有时你在伤口上撒盐又加醋。。。让我痛得难以忍受。。。很想一切结束。。。
这时的你。。。不但很温柔很温柔的为我包扎伤口。。。你还慰问我。。。
拥抱着我。。。安抚我。。。
你到底在想什么。。。你到底是什么？？？我又是你的什么？？？
干吗要对我忽冷忽热。。。你很令人讨厌知道吗？？？

your really very idiot....PERVERT...JERK.....
You hurt me....but u cure me softly....
You hurt me and add on some salt....but u cure me using ur heart.....
you hurt me deeply and add on some vinegar and salt....but u cure me with your warm and sweet hands....you whole me tight....you comfort me with your heart....
what are you thinking????
who am i for you????
who are you either????
suddenly without any emotion...
suddenly full of love......HATE YOU LAAAA.....


WHO IS IT????Secret.....~~~^^......mayb...no one at all...hoho^^

Nonsence

Many people...ask me the same question......
Do you have any bf now???
NO....I said...then they all just...
ARE YOU telling the truth.....i dont believe.....
OMG.....is it....me....100%got bf...?????
Nowadays....i prefer to be single and available cannot meh..............haiyo....><
erm.....
i'm waiting.....the one.....who can really.....
can be trusted.....
can protect me.....
can love me deeply.....
honestly.....
guy.........ya...mayb....no such guys...just in the fairy tales story.....
i wonder if i can like the ENCHANTED movie character jump into the storybooks...
life change....haha....

'' I'm just a normal girl....
but you....is a shining star among the crowd....
i can notice you .....but u cant notice me in a crowd.......''

haha...this is...what....i also dunno...just suddenly....feel to write out.....this sentences....

''Do you want to be my forever''?????

Today i have my aural exam...sight singing....
i feel so emberrasing....and so sad.....
i wish i can be much more confidence....much more clever....much more brave....
i know the answer...but at last....
i nervous....very very nervous.....all wrong....
i feel so down....i nearly cry out.....
lucky.....sasa.....yin chi jie jie......tam me....
but i also feel so useless....of myself....
everytime...if there are 1nd people looking me perform....i ...
will become a wood....become very nervous...
everything jz go worst....><....GOD....
help me ....
take me out of it....
CONFIDENCE.....Where are my confidence...
i still remember...when i was young....i am a very confidence and brave litle girl...
since when...i start to become so...unconfidence....so useless....so a shame for my parents><....

Irritating~~~Girls Thinking

Am i irritating for you????
Am i disturbing you???
Maybe....you are right....i'm very irritating....
i found that....i have to do a decision....to stop everything happen....
It shouldn't happen....Impossible to be happen...
I promise myself....not to fall in love again....i have to do it....
From now on...i wont find u anymore...i wont think of u anymore...
For you and me...is a good decision...maybe..i think...ya....maybe....
Is my fault...i have not follow my promise....

I know..for you my attitude is small minded....
But you know why i'm angry????reason is easy to be answer....
But for guys....they wont think so many...they just know...
you angry for small matter is small minded....
you find him when he busy is irritating....
you ask him to guess smth....is lazy to think.....
Guys never knows what girls want....what girls thinkin....NEVER.....
for guys..they will say...dunno what you girls thinking==....funny...hahaha....==

Avoid yourself to fall in love with a guy u shouldn't to be love....
it is so ....sad..........and....hard...so HURT......
From now on.....close your heart girl....dont let it open again....No....for yourself....
Keep everything in a cage....
and lock it up.....
surronded with a lot of torn....to protect yourself...
dont let your tears drop of again....say NO.....remember....NO....LET GO....

Every girls natural attitude....Small Minded....100%
wish you know my feelings....but dont wish u know my feelings......sometimes...
so scare you will avoid me....you will ignore me.....
So...i choose to escape....run away....hide up....
mayb.....
i'm scare u know the truth of me....
the truth of my feelings to you....
NO.....LET GO......

1......


2.......

3........................I WILL DISSAPPEAR FROM YOUR DREAM AND YOUR REAL LIFE FOREVER......

I WILL CAGE MY FEELINGS UP.....IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN.......









NO...........LET GO ANYMORE.........ENOUGH FOR BLEEDING.......IS TIME TO STOP BLEEDING AND CRYING......FOR U..........

=Food from Block D.....the love shape cut by me.....actually still got 1 sausage but no fishball><=====haha

=this is my favourite sweet...haha....nougat......original flavour....australia most famous sweet..==yummy^^
hehe....suddenly...feel to upload these picture.....

Recently......i'm so confuse about my life in the future....
Is it this is what i want....this is what i need....this is my future.....????
Suddenly everything just out of track.....
Think back my secondary school life.......free cognitive.....free life.......no pressure....full of pleasure.....most important is....the decision made by yourself....wont out of track....you wont feel lost....not insurance at all.....

Today.....is Sunday.....
this week my life just campus, home and music center.....
i dont feel to go out at all.....i feel so shame to go out and see everyone.....
likes...everyone using those very weird eye sight starring or watching at me...and discussing me....

Someone told me why my blog always write till so emotional....so gloomy....
HMMmm.....you told me everything can be very easy to solve...dont think till so complicated and make yourself so unhappy ....
I really thanks for your advice and helping hand....
you teach me a lot of things and thinking....this time...is time to let me face the truth...i'm sucks....haha.....

Am i suitable for study this courses????should i continue????
Everyone around me look so shinny and gorgeous.....
but...i cant even saw my own shadow now....everywhere so dark and cold.....
Even The God.....cry for me too

==Living alone in the dark castle , 365 days raining non stop==

Violin OR Guitar OR Non Music Student

Today....i ask my mummy....

Xian: mummy....can i buy a guitar as my birthday present??
Mummy: HAIYO....Why you want buy guitar...buy for what....got use meh...???
Xian: YA la....i want learn ma...den i can sing and play together ....hehe
Mummy: Dont want la...you concentrate on your piano...done well on your grade 8 exam only we talk about it.....

Xian: Yer...how can like this de....i want ar....

My mom's sister : Xian ar Xian.....why you want take guitar.....not suit your style also...you choose violin la...but is after your grade 8 piano exam 1st we only think about it la.....!!!!!!

Xian: But....but....

My mom's sister : No need but la....you concentrate your piano...if done with flying colors then only talk about it....

Xian: huh.....MERIT OR DISTINCTION???

MY MUMMY....: IF CAN SURE IS DISTINCTION LA..HAIYO.....If not u waste my $$$$$ lo...

haiz......why the image of me to everyone is classical...piano....violin...flute....but not guitar...drum or contem. student.....

hmmmm...or even i'm not a music student too??????
Recently .....

I have lose my way...the path which occur infront of me berfore just dissappear suddenly....
i feel so lonely...silent...scary....no one can help me....no one wish to do so....no one want to lend a helping hand for me?????
Even someone will do so...but i think i cant manage to reach the helping hand....cannot feel it...touch it...or grab it...

I'm sucks in music....someone tell me....that.....if you sucks den i mean nothing...pls....pls...pls
Please dont say so...actually u done very well....
For me...NEVER HAVE A DREAM COME TRUE.....

Sucks LIFE.....
Sucks IMAGINATION...
Sucks MUSIC SENSE....
Sucks PERSONALITY......
Sucks INNER PART.....
Sucks OUTER PART.....
Sucks VOICES.....
Sucks RESULT......
Sucks suCKs SUCKSSSSSSS....

HURT

Recently...i fall in love with this song...when i first heard this song....my heart was caught by it's lyrics and melody....Christina Aguilera....her voice is amazing....this song is about her life with her father....I can feel that she miss her fasther so much...i'm wondering....how will i survive if my parents pass away><.....i sure will cry hardly....even thought we did argue with each other all the times...but...is kind of communication to increase our relationship...

My tears drop down ....
so touching lyrics ....
Do you feel the same feeling as me?????
Love between family is really very very important in our life....and it is memorable...
Even a devil or demon...also will feel so touch after listening this songs...
Use you heart ...imagination...and ear....listening carefully the lyrics....SO TOUCHING.....
DAISUKI DES.....^^

The Ugly Truth

'The Ugly Truth'

What is the ugly truth??? Is it you doing some disgusting action in the public is the ugly truth or you 'PEE' infront of everyone????
Nah~~~the ugly truth is a movie which shown in theatre ...
It is talking about the truth of what guys thinking and what girls thinking...but why name it as an ugly truth???not the truth???
If you wacth this movie before you shall know....
So...what guys thinking????
Actually mostly Guys thinking is easy....all is about sex, love, money....and pretty sexy lady....
Then what's girl thinking???
MUch more easy to guess it....mostly girls is thinking about handsome guy, rich guy, good guy, having a nice body shape guy.....
Everyone wont tell you what kind of person they wish to have for their entire life....because if you know it....it defenitely an UGLY TRUTH....^^
This movie not bad....go have a look^^

my real age????

鉴定结果
您的心理年龄22岁

与您实际年龄差3岁

幼稚度64％

成熟度43％

老化度25％

come try try la:

http://www.xlzx.com/xlcs/zy32.htm

Recently...happen a lot of things....suddenly i feel so lonely so silent....haha..talking nonsence...
Now i'm watching a movie ....家好月圆。。。inside the movie....got twelve words so sweet....the guy say to the girl....‘我身体比你好，你死得比我早’...not tying to curse anyone juz...the guy becoz do wrong things and left the women for 10 years...then at last they together...the guy promise not to drop her alone again...he rather the women left him earlier also dont wish he will left her earlier....
today when i'm driving home..i saw a car having a weird number plat....
===XXX IDB 89===?????

Ohya......hmmm.....i got a very very specialll....BIRTHDAY CAKE....

===undeneath is the MCD vanila icecream corn ,above is the french fries as the candle><....haha...funny====

At last....this is my Good Girl Look...haha....
===Wear for special events only==!!!!