Everything end~

everything settle...done...nothing happen...happy go for my dissappear trip...haha...wish you happy all the time^^....and...seriously..damn rindu the day we met^^.....wish u have a nice day...^^...sweet dreams..good night..to you and everyone who read my blog...welcome..bye bye^^

Jealousy...misunderstanding....

This post...i wanted to write for a girl....

I know her since i when to uni. ....i still rmb out happy life time...but now...because of jealousy and misunderstanding...she damn freaking hate me...

if you saw this...i wish that u can be calm and finished it up....

I'm sorry that b4 if i hurt you or what...

the 1st thing i wanted to clear up is...me and 'him' (the one u like in sem 1)....

we are best friend...we never be couple at all..so pls dont think that i did steal ur 'bf' behind of you....i not blaming you...just wanted this biggest misunderstanding can be settle....and...i want mention one more serious thingy....

yes...i might be is a player to you..but seriously...even though i play...i also wont even touch a single hair of my friend target or bf....coz i cannot go pass my ownself about this...

2nd thing i need to tell you is...i never interested to the guy that u interested now...1st he is not my type even yes...i wont grab it or what...coz i treat u as my frenz...and is ur target ..i wont even add a single hand or leg into it...coz i know the hurts of it....

these are the things i wanted you to know..and wanted to clear the misunderstanding in ur mind...

besides...mostly of the day i wearing shorts or skirts...the main problem..less people will really trsut..bu the thing i wrote now is a truth...trust or not is depends on u...main reason why i not wearing jeans often is because my skin is a damn sensitive kind of skin...i will get itchy or red red color when i touch too much chemical thingy and dust....even hot....also....

so thats why i often wear less cloth ....the reason is not to attract anyone...just my sensitive skin problem...for you thise reason damn akward and weird but is true...i got it since i was young....

And i damn scare hot also because of this stupid problem....haha><...trust or not depends on u.,.i just wanted to tell u the truth....

Kla...i think i finish what i need to tell inside my heart...now is depends on you...since the day i knew you...i consider u as my best friends till now so many things happen i also dont even angry u ....coz...simple reason....i am a very simple person....^^...night wish you have a nice dream....my friends^^

My life

In my life...i dont even have much female friends...

Most of them will be good infront of me...but damn freaking hate me at my back...haha...

funny hor???

Firstly i though..is because i damn like a girl which just came out from the village...

dont know how to dress up....so they think i damn out dated...dont like me...

FINE....

so my dream is to be a pretty girl when i grow up...be a girl that which not too out dated...be a girl which is not noob in everything...be a girl which can make them admire...

i started to change in form 4....i wanted to be a real girl...i wanted to be just like them..i wanted them to be admire me..and like me...and wanted to hang out with me...

All i want just have more female friends and less people dont like me...

after finish secondary school...i used up about a year to chg my style my look my attitude...my everything to make it perfectly....although not so perfect but i did change...a lot a lot....

I though i change my style..may taste to fashion..my look...my attitude to a much more cheerful girl...i will get to know more female friends they really like me...

But at last...i found that...is really...my life sucks...nothing will really come true....hahaha..= =..WTF....i try my best to change my outer and either inner....is about 360 degrees of changing...at last...haha...same....same...SAME~~~~~~~~.....

FRIENDS...LOOK...INNER....TRUSWORTHY

What is the definition of friends to you?

Why my look can have so many bad image...such as cheap girl, player, bitch, 38 poh, 3 gu 6 poh, lan c lan y, clubber....

Is it the look of a person can represent everything???

Why can just dont listen to others and look the person inner by urself???

Is it so fun to fooling a person who really trully used the real heart to be ur friends...and wish that everything you this friends got is happy???

IF yes...den what for you still need a single friends in your life???then what for you still need to smile or talk to me...make me to trust you...

Many ppl think that i really a god that can handle thing... mostly i can..but in my life there are two important thing i can really keep my emotion nicely...because i damn fucking concern about it...1ST...IS FRIENDSHIP TO GIRLS...in my life i have less girls friends...why most of them like to hate me...Even though if u really fall in love to a guy that i really close to...if i know that...i sure wont even think about him...because you is my friend....i concern about you i concern about your feeling..but why...why you wanted to hurt me....why cannot trust me....is it because of my look...if yes..tell me la...THEN FROM THAT TIME...I WILL WEAR LIKE CHUN GU...ACT AS A NERD...

maybe for others you think i'm stupid...but for me..i think is worth..

Why everytime sure because of guys...guys everywhere also got..why because of them you all wanted to talk such thing and hurt me...and 'throw stone ' to me...is it really that the main reason...MY OUTER LOOKING= =...ISH~

Somehow i damn fucking hate myself...need time to be alone@@....

♥~Thats Why You Go Away~♥

♥Thats why you go away♥

For some people this might be kind of emo song...for me this song is categorized as one of the song that really touch my heart... in my C drive( mind) since i was young><...The lyrics is damn freaking meaningful...I dunno why when i listen to this song i will think back a lot of things which i have been keep it deep inside my heart...I never tell anyone about my feelings easily because i don't wanted someone or anyone worried about me...about my stuff my problem...i just will tell out some when i really feel so fade up and stress till unable to keep(which also means exploded)...

I've been studying in UCSI for one year foundation...the only once i exploded is because i really unable to keep it anymore...Stress for everything that happen around me...Long time i don't even exploded alr..but 2010...this year...feb. happen two biggest changes in my life....mar. stress for studies...apr. stress for exam exam exam... finally now i have time to stop by my blog and update the negative side of me...

♥I don't wanna miss a thing♥

This also another song that categorized in my favorite album in C drive ...lol...The lyrics of the song can tell me a lot of kinds of feeling through your heart to your lover...I dont wanna close my eyes i dont want to fall asleep...This mention that how much u miss a person that which u really concern ...really cares...i wonder that is there anyone will really will be such kind loyalty to his or her partner or lover><....Anyway this just a MV...which means not reality stuff either...so...since it is not a real scene...you shouldn't still dreaming that there will be someone like AEROSMITH...haha...

A lot of people will think of their lover will be a leng zai or leng lui and damn perfect people...OMG..my dear bro. and sis...wake up pls@@...Dont fall asleep anymore...wake up and stay awake...use your REAL EYES and look around the world the society ...if you still dont wake up when u really going to step out to this dominant society you will very hard to survive...because in this reality society everything is about prove...about material...dont event hink that dreaming can be survive==...

Disappear time@@

Recently too many problems appear><...Love problems...is the main problems during this few days...Is time to go for a walk ...release the stress and dont care for anything...Dont think about anything...will be disappear from 30th Apr. 2010 till 2nd Apr. 2010...

P/S: Love problems not my love problems but...dunno why i been trap into it= =...so innocent...ANYWAY....wish everything can be settle and live cheerful my friends...

Another topic i wanted to talk about is...friendship...

Whats the definition of friendship for you?

Whats the point of having a friend?

Whats the point of ....

Think it calmly and dont think too much...i'm not trying to insult or what...just wondering what are you thinking...Think and answer yourself...not used to tell anyone about the answer....

Coming to the end of this topic...I wish everyone is enjoying their holidays...live happily and cheerful all day long!!!

HUG

235am

I'm so desperate to have a warm warm hug now!!!....Who will willing to give me a warm hug><...and tell me...Dont worry, i'll beside of you all the time whenever you need me...i will be yours forever@@....Chill girl..dont scare...dont nervous..just be yourself...just do whatever you feel to do...follow you own feelings@@...

14, 15, 16 april 2010 life@@

=Hotel Istana having ABRSM EXAM...this is the toilet><=

=i am pretending that i shower...so stupid...=

= omg...u this..stalker...=

=thinking of you =

=OMG...CHILI@@=

=I'M EATING U STUPID CHILI...ARGH=

=cheese a dunno wht toy and chili^^=

=Ready to eat chili@@=

=OHHHmg~~=

=Just wake up....waited to take a bath...take some randomg pic^^=

=take a side way style pic. pic...hehe^^=

=haha...no take a pic with a SHOWER CAP before so take once la^^=

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=KISS YOU GAO GAO...HAHA...ble...XP=

=kISS ME@@=

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=BLE....BLU...BLA...=

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Kinda lazy to write down so much thingy...so i choose to post those pic. and some short senteces besides each pic...hehe@@

Date Night

Today, i went for a movie with xiao huei , sasa, kim, wen shin, and joslyn....

Me and xiao huei is the 1st ppl to reach MV....becoz...we two is classical student so we done our jury in the morning...OMG..today morning really a nightmare to me....i've remembered the wong time of my jury...the actual time should be 0945am but..in my memory it is recorded in 12pm....WTF.....shit ...i was so damn fucking nervous and worried that the lecturers(examiners) dont even let me to take the jury exam and fail me...but luckily they are kind...they let me have my exam ...

Many ppl ask me: hey, ally how's your exam???

I sure ans:it is sucks....die alr...need extend 1 more sem becoz of this stupid jury exam...actually...is a truth..today i play the stupid baroque pieces...O.M.G. is damn sucks man...shit shit shit S.H.I.T~~~coming to the end of the piece i do IMPROVISATION....WTF....sure 0 mark alr....T.T....really wish i could pass this foundation jury if not i will stop studying at UCSI alr@@....

Listz is my second piece...this piece i very conidence...haha....coz i not used to play it out in memory...i just need to raise the piano stand, put the fail on it...and look and feel and play it out....thats all....haha@@

After jury....i went to movie at MV with 5 of the frenz...as i alr mention at the starting of the blog@@....

DATE NIGHT is the movie i watched just now..it is damn freaking aweome...although i really feel to punch of whack the 'MR AND MRS FORSTER'= =....damn fucking annoying....but is quite nice to watch such LOVE COMEDY MOVIE....

Inside this movie the most highlight sentence is 'ZIP UP YOUR VIRGINA'...wow~~~COOL....

erm....now i'm in the library and waiting the time goes by....becoz i'm going to have my private class at 2030pm...haha...

我的小小心情记录~伤害

我的夜归领到你担忧是我的错。。。但是为什么你就是不会用更好的方法去表达你担心我。。。而且你为什么就是那么爱偏袒一个没有用的家伙。。。难道你喜欢没有用的多过一个有用的人？？？

我很努力去表示我对你的尊敬。。。我很努力的不犯错。。。偶尔叛逆以下。。。让自己发泄。。难道这都有错？？？就算有错。。为什么你怀用这样的话来伤害我。。。

中学的伤害。。。我还记得很深刻。。。那一巴掌。。。我是不会忘记的。。。因为就是那一巴掌我感觉不到你对我的关心和爱。。。

2010年2月的伤害。。。也是你给我最难忘的新年提早的‘红包’。。。这次也是你伤害得我最深最深。。。

这天我的确有和你吵架。。但是。。我只是希望你清醒一点。。。那个废物不是普通的。。。而是顶级废物。。。我宁愿没有一个这样的人和我有关系。。也不希望有一个废物在我身边有人撑腰的飘来飘去。。。

昨晚。。。你很气的骂了我。。。说我。。越来越放肆。。。

穿短裤上课。。。现在叫你去上课不是去摆美。。。CCB。。。我现在有留sem没有。。。没有就没有资格骂我这个。。。

你说我越来越坏。。。。DIAO你。。。你的女儿坏的时候。。是中学。。。现在和中学比。。。是360度转变。。变得不能再好的好了。。。

你说我每天都玩。。。都夜归。。。那个废物就算读书的时候夜归都是因为做功课。。。FUCKER废物努力作废物就会称赞。。。我努力的你都不放在眼里。。。我这样都叫出去玩。。。你自己反省一下。。。你到底有没有真正的关心一下我的学业。。。工作。。压力？？？

你没有问候过一句。。。我交男朋友。。。你反对。。好那么我就不交咯。。。你还不满意。。。我多朋友你应该高兴。。。这证明你的女儿是个有本事。。有用的人。。。

我的吃喝玩乐都叫离谱。。。那么那个废物就叫乖巧？？？我的吃喝玩乐不是每天。。都叫经常。。。那么那个废物的吃喝玩乐是每天的叫正常？？？

我的努力是白费的。。。那么那个废物的努力作废物叫勤劳？？？

你知不知道。。。你对我。。。不应该说。。你伤害我真的很心碎。。。就算用无限的对不起无限的爱来弥补也未必可以将我的阴影抹去。。。因为真的很恨恨。。超级深刻。。。。

很多时候你说我什么都不说。。。不是我不要说。。是说了。。。没有人会听。。会去想。。。会去体会。。。

昨晚起。。我现在才知道。。我是最坏的。。。我是最放肆的。。。我是最没有用的。。。谢谢。。。。我明白了。。。我知道了。。。我的努力是浪费时间浪费你的钱。。。。哈哈哈。。。。

♥两天傻傻的我♥

昨天。。。不。。应该说。。。今天凌晨。。。2点。。我回到家。。。哎呀。。。为什么那么迟==。。因为我和朋友喝茶打坐球。。。啊哈哈。。。无聊的我就在那里拍照。。还做傻婆头。。。啊哈哈。。。照片在这里。。。要看吗？？嘻嘻。。。。不看也不行啦。。。都已经放了。。就随便看看我这个傻婆。。。受到大压力的时候会是怎样的咯。。。尽情观赏傻婆头。。啊哈哈。。

这些都是今天的杰作。。。啊哈哈。。。无聊的一天又要过了哦。。。么么。。。大家。。晚安。。。这是我睡觉前edit的。。。啊哈哈